sometimes i felt im so stupid. why do i think so, cause i feel it. isit i am ? uurgh ! okay, i admit im stupid ! i hate pushing pushing !

for my life now, i full with my dumb-ness...hahaha. maybe before that, someone that most pampered me alot. she treat me as a princess.i missed that moment. finally, i felt im stupid for leaving. do god let me to return ? hmmm..idk. fyi, i can see my life not like before. i must change my life from now on, i need to work and get a job. i want independant for myself. what am i crapping, i also dont know. hahaha.